Isolation

Now that the holidays are over and life is supposed to start calming down, I can reflect on how I am feeling. Honestly? I feel really lonely. I forgot how isolated having a new baby can make you feel. I know that I have friends, but I feel like I have barely seen anyone since Marshall was born, and honestly even before. Don't get me wrong, I will take the blame here, but that doesn't make it any easier. Part of the problem is that most of my closest friends live at least an hour away all the way up to another country completly. I don't blame them, I mean, you go where life takes you. It's just hard to get all three of the kids around a lot to go visit. Especially now that it is winter, the decent days to go visit are few and far between. I know in life, we all go our own way and all my friends have gone their's and I am SO happy for all of them. It just leaves me with a sense of isolation. Does that make sense? I used to go have all sorts of Mom's nights with friends. What happened to those? Maybe we could set one up sometime soon? Bottom line? I miss my friends...all of them.