"I'm a mother, I'm a lover, a chef, a referee. I'm a doctor, and a chauffeur seven days a week. I ain't asking for a medal, yeah I know you work too. I'd just like a little credit where credit is due. It's the hardest gig I've ever known. I work my fingers to the bone. Yeah the dishes and the diapers never stop. Lousy pay, there ain't no 401K. I know this may come as a shock, but this here's a full time job!"--Full Time Job sung by Gretchen Wilson

Monday, December 8, 2008

Really Earning My Pay....

These Days! If only I got paid! No one said that being a mom would be easy. I get that. I knew what I signed up for. But lately it seems like one of those times when I SHOULD be getting paid. Life just shouldn't be this difficult. The girls are just driving me nuts, things are tight because the economy sucks (which makes Eric stressed too), and our appliances keep breaking on us. Seriously, first the dryer decided to break. It would tumble, but wouldn't heat up. at least it was an easy enough fixed by buying a new heating element ($50 better than having to buy a new dryer I guess.) Then last night the handle and door came off of our oven! Eric found the screw that had come out, but still just ticked us both off, I mean come on...can stuff stop breaking. Finances are tight and this time of year it seems like we all need money for something. I know that everyone is going through this same thing though so I am not going to dwell on it. I don't think that I can write anything that I haven't already read on someone else's blog. Let's just suffice it to say that another economic stimulus package would be greatly appreciated right now. Or how about like $2000 sent to the homes with one stay at home parent? I think that sounds about right. I hope that everyone will be OK with handmade gifts this year! Mainly, the girls are just driving me insane. Jillian has decided that she is just not going to sleep at night...at all! It sucks so much. I can't get her to sleep longer than 2 hours at a time. She is waking up both Eric and I and he even slept on the couch last night so he couldn't get a little sleep. Then Layla has decided that she is going to whine, complain, and just be a little stinker. She is copping an attitude all of the time, she REFUSES to poop on the toilet (even though we took away all of her bears and everything she sleeps with), and she refuses to listen. I know she is just 3 and I am trying to bear that in mind, but she is driving me NUTS! Seriously, I think I will go insane if she yells "NO!" at me one more time. I tried to cut her a little slack after her fall on Friday (for details, see our family blog to the right). But, I think she is taking it too far. Please just grant me a little peace and quiet. I have stuff to get done, and just am too wiped to do it. I am thanking GOD that I am going to my parents' house tomorrow so that I can let them run (crawl, whatever) around the farm and play in the snow and generally, leave me the heck alone. I feel like a horrible mommy saying that, but seriously, just trust me. They are being little nightmares right now. I hope this is just a stage. I love those little girls so much and I just HATE myself for being this way with them.

1 comment:

darcilyna said...

i have been feeling the same way! i think our big girls are definitely in a whiny... irritate the heck out of mommy phase... so NOT fun! and MJ is at a different stage as jillian, but it's still the "i want mommy" almost all of her waking moments lately... tonite at dinner, i was batting away elliet's little feet saying... i don't want you touching me!! how horrible is that?! i TOTALLY UNDERSTAND!!! hope you can get some peace and quiet this weekend...and i'm sending sleeping dust your way for baby Jillian!