"I'm a mother, I'm a lover, a chef, a referee. I'm a doctor, and a chauffeur seven days a week. I ain't asking for a medal, yeah I know you work too. I'd just like a little credit where credit is due. It's the hardest gig I've ever known. I work my fingers to the bone. Yeah the dishes and the diapers never stop. Lousy pay, there ain't no 401K. I know this may come as a shock, but this here's a full time job!"--Full Time Job sung by Gretchen Wilson

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas all! God Bless!

Monday, December 8, 2008

Really Earning My Pay....

These Days! If only I got paid! No one said that being a mom would be easy. I get that. I knew what I signed up for. But lately it seems like one of those times when I SHOULD be getting paid. Life just shouldn't be this difficult. The girls are just driving me nuts, things are tight because the economy sucks (which makes Eric stressed too), and our appliances keep breaking on us. Seriously, first the dryer decided to break. It would tumble, but wouldn't heat up. at least it was an easy enough fixed by buying a new heating element ($50 better than having to buy a new dryer I guess.) Then last night the handle and door came off of our oven! Eric found the screw that had come out, but still just ticked us both off, I mean come on...can stuff stop breaking. Finances are tight and this time of year it seems like we all need money for something. I know that everyone is going through this same thing though so I am not going to dwell on it. I don't think that I can write anything that I haven't already read on someone else's blog. Let's just suffice it to say that another economic stimulus package would be greatly appreciated right now. Or how about like $2000 sent to the homes with one stay at home parent? I think that sounds about right. I hope that everyone will be OK with handmade gifts this year! Mainly, the girls are just driving me insane. Jillian has decided that she is just not going to sleep at night...at all! It sucks so much. I can't get her to sleep longer than 2 hours at a time. She is waking up both Eric and I and he even slept on the couch last night so he couldn't get a little sleep. Then Layla has decided that she is going to whine, complain, and just be a little stinker. She is copping an attitude all of the time, she REFUSES to poop on the toilet (even though we took away all of her bears and everything she sleeps with), and she refuses to listen. I know she is just 3 and I am trying to bear that in mind, but she is driving me NUTS! Seriously, I think I will go insane if she yells "NO!" at me one more time. I tried to cut her a little slack after her fall on Friday (for details, see our family blog to the right). But, I think she is taking it too far. Please just grant me a little peace and quiet. I have stuff to get done, and just am too wiped to do it. I am thanking GOD that I am going to my parents' house tomorrow so that I can let them run (crawl, whatever) around the farm and play in the snow and generally, leave me the heck alone. I feel like a horrible mommy saying that, but seriously, just trust me. They are being little nightmares right now. I hope this is just a stage. I love those little girls so much and I just HATE myself for being this way with them.

Thursday, December 4, 2008


So, I have cleaned up more poop in the past two days then I ever really care too. We have been giving Layla a little juice in the morning to help teach her that she needs to poop everyday AND that she needs to do this in the potty. It is not going well. She just keeps going in her underware. Then Jilly has been poopin' like crazy the past two days too. Motherhood, sometimes, it is just a shitty job!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Borrowed Christmas Questionnaire

I found this questionnaire at Knit for Joy and thought it would be fun for the holidays. I am trying to log every day at least a little something so sometimes you have to get creative. Enjoy.

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?
Usually wrapping paper unless it is too big or to oddly shaped to wrap

2. Real tree or Artificial?

3. When do you put up the tree?
Whenever I can get my hubby to get it down from the attic. Needless to say, it is not up yet.

4. When do you take the tree down?
Whenever I get motivated (a lot of the time it depends on when it went up)

5. Do you like eggnog?
Real Eggnog, yes!

6. Favorite gift received as a child?
I think my Cabbage Patch Kid

7. Hardest person to buy for?
My Brother-In-Law and of course I have his name this year!

8. Easiest person to buy for?
Carli...yarn...how hard is that. Granted we don't do gifts anymore, but still, she would be the easiest to buy for.

9. Do you have a nativity scene?
Yes and it is really pretty

10. Mail or email Christmas cards?

11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?
Nothing that I can remember

12. Favorite Christmas Movie?
National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?
So haven't started yet. I'll start whenever I get the chance.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present?
I'm sure I have, but I don't remember

15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas?
Peroigies. My Grandmother used to make them. I plan on making them this year.

16. Lights on the tree?
yep, the tree already has them on it.

17. Favorite Christmas song?
Oh Holy Night

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home?
We have always traveled. This year we are staying at home.

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's?
You know Dasher and Dancer and Prancer and Vixen. Comet and Cupid and Donner and Blitzen. But do you recall, the most famous reindeer of all??!?!!

20. Angel on the tree top or a star?
Well, I bought a star last year, but it is too heavy for our tree!

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning?
Christmas Eve at my In Laws and then our family Christmas here at home on Christmas Morning.

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year?
When people write Merry X-Mas! Quit taking Christ out of the holiday people! Oh, and the fact that stores and the media won't say Merry Christmas. I know not everyone celebrates Christmas, but it still annoys me.

23. Favorite ornament theme or color?
I love silver...silver everywhere!

24. Favorite for Christmas dinner?
Meat, potatoes, and my MIL's Pumpkin Roll...Then Perogies too. Doesn't get much better than that!

25. What do you want for Christmas this year?
For the girls to have a wonderful Christmas. I want them to remember their kid Christmas's fondly. And on a more material note, I would LOVE a set of Denise Needles.

26. Who is most likely to blog about this?

27. Lights, blinking or always on?
Always on.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

It's Epic!

Romeo and Juliet, Rhett and Scarlett, Jack and Rose (from Titanic)...Epic love stories. When I was younger I watched these stories (read these stories, whatever) and I remember thinking, "That is the kind of love I want!". I wanted someone to love me SO passionately it hurt.

Yesterday, I finally finished watching Walk The Line and it made me think about what Epic love really means. June Carter was there for Johnny Cash and helped him beat his drug use. She didn't want to run into marriage with him. He loved her so madly. I know that he cheated on his wife with her and I am not condoning that at all. That was wrong, but after his wife left him, he wanted June, plain and simple. I'm sure there were other women there to fill the void, he was a rock star after all, but he always loved June. He loved her so much that after she died in May 2003, he only lasted 5 months without her passing away in September of that same year.

Then, that got me thinking about the love that I have. I love my husband so deeply. He is the one that I turn to for everything. He makes me SO very happy. We have the kind of relationship that we can be comfortable talking about anything, but also spending time together not talking, just being together. I will admit that we don't have the "I'd die without you" kinda love, but is that what we should be aiming for? If God forbid, something happened to Eric, I would be devastated, but I would like to think that we have the type of relationship that he would WANT me to get on with my life, not die without him.

Both of our parents' marriage have lasted over 30 years and to me THAT is Epic Love. You can watch my mom and dad and his mom and dad and you know that they love each other so much and always will. They walk hand in hand in this life as equals. They listen to each other, care about each other and love each other. They are friends, not just lovers. I have no doubt that they will spend the rest of their lives together happily married. It may not always be blissful, but always full of love. So, THAT is the kind of Epic Love I want. Not the double suicide, Boat sinking, "I don't give a damn" kind, but the "I truly want to spend the rest of my life right beside you" kind. I love Eric so much and I pray that that is the type of love we have. He is my partner, the father to my children, my lover, my confidante, but most of all, he is my friend and I look forward to spending the rest of my life with him.