Fear

There have been many times in my life when I have felt fear. When I went into early labor with Layla (thankfully that was stopped), when I was having Jillian and it hurt SO bad, when Mom was in the hospital, when Dad was in the hospital. When the doctor told us it would be hard on me to have more children (we don't really want more, but it was scary to hear). Today I feel fear. I know in my heart that it is an unfounded fear and that everything is fine. But, I can't help but be a little fearful. I have developed what we THINK is a clogged milk duct in my breast. Well, it isn't getting better. There are no signs of infection, just a raised section of my breast and PAIN! The lactation nurse that I originally saw last Friday thought it w0uld be a good idea to see my doctor when I talked with her yesterday. I called to make an appointment for today. The nurse told me they would do an ultra sound because a mammogram is ineffective since I am nursing, That one single word struck fear in my heart...mammogram. The big C word runs pretty rampent in my family. I'm sure that is NOT what this is, but I can't help but associate it when I hear that I should have a mammogram, you know? Again, I'm sure this fear is unfounded and rediculous, but I can't help it. Wish me luck I guess. My appointment is this afternoon. I will post later and tell how it went.